Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Woeful Wednesday

Whew, what a relief this long day is almost over!  It's been quite a whirlwind.  Caleb had to have a spinal tap today to get a special chemotherapy injected directly into his spine and just to make sure that no sneaky cancer cells have come back.  The maximum amount of sedation is five doses, but for whatever reason, even the max wouldn't sedate Caleb this time.  Something similar has happened in the past, but he eventually "went under", but not this time!  That means four loving medical workers & I had to hold him down, while he cried out during the spinal tap.  It's truly amazing to witness the skills of his Oncologist, who was able to pull off the procedure with what I called my little bucking bronco.

We were to the point of having to cancel & reschedule in the operating room, when I started to pray really hard.  Caleb calmed down, became still, & just stared at me with silent tears, & it was all over soon.  Wish I had started prayers earlier, but got caught up in the moment of comforting him myself.  Caleb needed Someone much more powerful than medicine or mommy.  I truly believe when you call on Jesus, all things are possible.

Cal slept well on the way home! 
The sedation came two hours too late.
Big brother Zach was so excited to see him, but couldn't wake him up. 
Even funny antics like tickling his nose wouldn't work. 
Once we got home, Cal didn't make it past the first door. 
I snapped this photo, thinking it would be fun to show him later how sleepy he was, but then I quickly realized he wasn't lying down because he was tired.
Caleb was actually very sick to his stomach.  Therefore, we have spent the past hour lying on the bathroom floor together (luckily I had just cleaned it!)  :)  It took a while to coax him into bed, but he's there now and resting a little more comfortably.  Looks like breakfast will be his last meal of the day. 
I'm still choking back tears, but refuse to give into them, because I know he won't remember any of this (b/c of his medication) & because we feel blessed that things have been going so well lately.

We want to thank you for your prayers.  They've truly been powerful.  The past few weeks have felt cancer-free!   Caleb has been living without side effects & has been eating healthy meals again.   He's been waking up smiling and sleeping peacefully through the night.  Hopefully we'll slip right back into that pattern, after this tough day.  

Psalms 118  Oh give thanks unto the Lord for He is good, for His mercy endureth forever.  Amen!


  1. Can I say it's be a h~ll of a day!!!! Seems like the Good Lord above sure is testing everyone today. Prayers that Caleb continues to feel good, sleeps and eats well. Test results continue to be good and not bad. Positive thoughts for you Melissa. The strength you have is out of this world. Bless you!! May you ALL sleep good tonight. XXXOOO The Green's!

  2. Hi Melissa...I just can't imagine how you feel. I am choking back the tears just reading about Caleb's fight. Just know that there are many people who are following this struggle and praying for Caleb and your family. Your strength is inspiring. Zach is also doing such a great job. What an incredible brother. God bless you and your family.


  3. It's hard in the trenches...I can tell you from experience that the kids are quite resilient. But it's tough on a Momma's heart! I

    1 Peter 5:10. "And after you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you"

    Shannon Wingo

  4. Melissa,
    my heart hurts for you and Caleb and the entire family. I cannot imagine the pain you are all going through. I love you like family and I will continue to pray.
    I'm looking forward to the day when you can look at all of this in the rear view mirror. it will get here.

  5. PRAYING FOR AND CRYING WITH!!!! Oh my! May peace and strength be in your home and in your hearts!!! Be strong, Caleb!! Be strong little warrior! The battle belongs to the Lord!
    With love!!

  6. Dear Heavenly Father, Please take this precious family in your loving arms and give them the comfort, peace, , strength, and blessings that only come from you. We love them so much and we know you are faithful.

  7. Reading about your day with Caleb saddens me and brings tears to my eyes, but I know that God is with you and your entire family. I continue to follow Caleb's courageous battle against this horrible disease and I continue to pray for better days ahead. What a sweet boy Caleb is, he's so blessed to have you as his mother. Melissa, may God continue to strengthen you and keep you. God bless Caleb and Caleb's family.

  8. Oh my! I can feel your exhaustion in this post, Melissa. Another amazing example of God's hand in Caleb's treatment. I am thankful that Caleb has had good days and hope there are many more to come. Keeping you all in my daily prayers....
    Susan Combest